Today was recertification day.
I was happy to oblige in order to continue working with my co-op, as when it comes to what goes into this body, since great shape is hardly what I would call this, LOL, but truthfully, though an extremely difficult and painful year-and sure, most of it is physical.
Being well-having realized that the whole medical team that I had-well, it hadn't amounted to anything other than a bad experience. Tomorrow, a new beginning, in some ways, but I am moving my care to the University of Washington. A different pain clinic, finally, but one not far from my new home.
In the "boondocks."
But in all reality looking back? I wouldn't trade it for one thing. Even looking as different as I do, I am still sick-but has hemp helped?
You must be kidding.
Today I began again treating my Gastroparesis with a new saladbowl of a 90% Indica (close-the numbers were slightly up) but at any rate, the other half is a quarter to begin-since only 2 weeks until pay day and I have weight to gain, with my teeth the disgusting mess, and needing to stimulate gut motility and also head off a flare-up
Where to begin?
If you have people present for you-ask their help-if they can't, well, you still have the weed, right?
Anyhow, I decided at the beginning that each move I made would have it's purpose. And so-to speak, the donation resulted in the following.
I got 2 "Loaded Sodas" which have:
180 calories
dTHC: 15.66%
CBD (Cannaboids as in steroids?) - 1.04%
I am upping my CBD count a bit, keeping THC (the painkiller-reliever, folks, it's still not a cure). But I am hoping to head off a flare, and since the CBD's are found in the marijuana that has the most of it is Sativa, it's likely why even though a difficult time with gastroparesis, I hope that steroid will head off the flare. Or help to. Even that is best, I feel. Totally trying to cover pain, always a mistake.
And setting yourself up to fail. Would I love to add more vitamins, nutrition, I plan to. I may not be able to add the control of the spinchters in the stomach, but one thing I can do is make sure that I am keeping food in, if that is a goal-use the motility from the Sativa, be grateful my gut is what it stimulates while chilling me out?
That works-the THC in my Sativa plus the Indica (for mostly pain, some nausea, but the reasons for nausea must also be looked at.
Opiate medications, which I have given back to a large degree-and the most toxic one, which sure, it is methadone, I can think of more than one person on it-and most hate it. But folks, on that note, it's unnecessary to beat up on those who may have more to them than a diagnosis of RSD. And to further say that we have "more pain" or RSD causes it, that is-kind of arrogant if you ask me, especially in the face of human fallability.
And some of us-friends of mine, and others with some wickedly painful disorders: scleroderma, MS, and things that I saw because I have medical training-so putting it to use, I did the lengthy "research" in my first few months considering medical marijuana, and then in getting the permit, and some bumps in the road.
Smooth sailing? Not exactly. A rollercoaster would be closer to the druth.
So I used an opportunity to see if a safe home-detox? Yup, in just a few days, no coma necessary with ventilator support. A bong, a lighter or two, and LOL, some water, and well, sure-a taper, I am not a masochist, but it was not a big deal for me.
And I feel better. Do I take something for pain in terms of "pain meds"? The answer is yes. I take a combination of mostly anticonvulsants, a muscle relaxer, and well, sure some pain medication. But in less than six months, I dropped the dose of one pain reliever, gave two back, one an as needed, added the "weed" and also dropped the NSAID that was ripping up my stomach.
Currently I don't normally discuss specifics-becuase plenty of insanity exists, and borrowing trouble isn't my idea of fun. But with an MRI that well-this you can have a peek, it's not great, that is for certain...LOL.
Everyone has some kind of pain. And it can be whatever-if someone has bipolar-that's their "pain medicine" that they have, be it lithium, depakote, or whatever medicine the shrinks are passing out, I want no part of it-I doubt those meds, save a few were designed initially with lifetime use.
Marijuana has been around since before Jesus came-and well, it's a sturdy plant-in the right climate, and well, using hemp? When cooking with it-using olive oil I have a way to add some amount of hemp to it (or it can be purchased with the marijuana cooked into the oils, corn, vegetable, and olive oil is available at most dispensaries-and is wise if you have GP, when your diet reaches a degree where you are even if pureed, getting some regular food, I can add this, and the direct application of whichever form of weed adds to what I am using in terms of "smoking" or as I prefer, medicating. But sure, the CRPS is my primary target, and GP a very close second, since I find continual nausea worse than pain.
Anyhow, I am relieved, because I am beginning to feel better. So far, today's meds, in summation:
1. 1 12ounce loaded soda, or THC and the natural cannaboid/steroid to begin targeting the cause of some amound of the RSD-related pain. In it is your pain medicine, the "THC" or the most active usually in the medical marijuana-now to be referred to as MMJ- and our cannaboid, the natural steroid, and powerful antiinflammatory. By raising the natural steroid, temporarily, I hope to offset the flare. Much like when the doc gives a course of prednisone....
2. A small (I pack the bowl in the morning, as my meds I take since liquid and its difficult to say but the taking is time-consuming) amount of Sativa (50% Sativa 50% indica, and about 15% combined with a good Indica hybrid in one bowl-so the two plants, when pulled separately added to your bowl laid side by side, and what I mean by referring to a "salad bowl" is when more than one plant is in the bowl prepared for smoking-you stuff it in-but too tight, not much is going to happen, save some wasting-of medicine. (I usually set them next to each other, not on top. The reason? Bottom of the bowl guys!)
All top shelf, and because a membership, a sweatshirt in a new size, but it swims. I hope to grow into it, but not all the way.
So far, I feel better, and for now, relatively normal-to the degree that I can. It makes it liveable, and I couldn't ask for more.
With regard to the upping of CBD, this is testing a theory on my part-not of anything more.
What I have noted: The Sativa calms me energy wise because of the ADHD, but in reality it does also help to keep track of what works, listen to staff when they recommend a product.
And for allodynia? I have found a fantastic creame that I can compound myself: thanks, ketamine, but this stuff is amazing. Professionally it's great at first.
Most labs, such as locally ones that make Rick Simpson Oil, much to my own disappointment, I have found that it works great. I mean truly amazing, it was as close to a week's worth a a pain level daily of maybe a 4. And functional? I was able to undergo the extraction of two teeth before that whole thing went south.
But I believe that the salad bowls (just a bowl like any other, just 2 kinds of flower in it, not one.
It may not sound like a lot in the realm of what seems like with what is already a powerful NSAID effect, some versions of a medical marijuana product like the soda for example, can contain whatever is added (why you never, ever get off the street-some situations, like one RSD'er I know of has more grit than I do for certain, but in the state of Florida, they like neither marijuana-though it's available just about anywhere, to be honest, but in one of the legal states (18/Washington, DC) it's more adviseable, since you can have lab tested, safely grown medication over something that may have too much , (or not enough) of something your body needs (pain meds, anti-nausea, muscle spasms that would have me laid out, but adding basically whatever I can afford-because not to abuse, I like feeling better more frequently is most of it.
So I decided to go with a new strain, 60% Sativa/40% Indica, and the THC is around 15-17%, as is the case in much of "House" product when it comes to straight flower. I tend to be a traditionalist and smoke it out of a water bong: it's most effective-for me. Though it pays to listen to the nice doc when she offers a tip to a cooker-one I am not allowed to publish, but nevertheless, vaporizing some of it can allow you to "recycle a bit" and TELL one how to do a thing, such as use (and highly effectively) even the dust in the bag or jar you have your medicine in: it's fair to say yes-I spend as much as I can afford.
Added in one bowl a day on average, I split the bud, use 1/2 of the "Crazy Twain" I believe it's called, and use the soda to up the natural cannaboid/steroid effect and have an even more powerful steroid effect by treating with one soda today, my usual (called "salad bowls" when you mix the "weed" as I fondly call it, and use 2 types of flower in one bowl when you load it to smoke.
Is this for everyone? No, certainly not. Can it save a person's life? If it means allowing me to be able to eat when what modern medicine produces rots teeth, leaches bones of calcium, my Vitamin deficencies are appearing over the map, but gastroparesis is a nasty one.
It was in brief explained, but basically there is little to no motility or coordination of the spinchters (Both of them) of my stomach. So unless awakened by the half presence of Sativa (which mellows out this one fast-Sativa, that is-but the wake up process does hurt, the hybrids I typically get can be quite strong, and though most are keps awake by the presence of Sativa, I suffer from ADHD, even in adulthood, so it helps that, expecially when in your morning coffee, with presence of caffiene, another relatively harmless (unless you overdo it like anything) substance (though you say every day, you get an addiction label: shoot, I could tell you one doc listed me as "addicted" to about anything he could think of? I mean this is my meds, and if it saves them the trouble of a triplicate prescription, I'd be grateful.
Not passing out labels that can follow a person for a lifetime. If they allow it. Can marijuana be addictive? For some, sure. What is your goal? Getting screwed up-if you are honest about it, I would say-give them that and leave it alone if it works. If a person has no money is unable to work, I would say naturopathic medicine-in Florida it would be problematic, sure.
Massacheusetts, but well, some are willing, garaunteed. If I move, it has to be in a legal state, because right now, the meds from modern medicine for Gastroparesis-well, I'd be hooked up to TPN otherwise (IV nutrition) and I guess if it's even out of pocket, I prefer to um, skip black box warnings, and almost everything for GP (short for gastroparesis) has one. Reglan? Check. Phenergan will work, depending on dosage, in a pinch.
But it's nerve damage, and that typically is not coming back-can weed slow progression? I hope it does, I've progressed into the atrophic stage, and folks, those who say that Stage Four doesn't exist-it's because it was written out of the literature guys, LOL, it's alive and well. But the neuroprotectants present in some of this, well, I think a difference has been made.
I have put on some weight, and that's a positive sign.
A ways to go? Certainly. Can I be a Christian and use marijuana? It depends on me, and since the pain from RSD is like burning in hell, I choose that it's not to be an eternity.
And I think that the cannabis saved my life. When I got my certification, I was not doing well, the gastroparesis was so bad I couldn't do the empty study. I am not sure which way I would empty-via gross but normal, or Part 2? But now, with learning how to make something I can add to the food I eat not to get "f-d up, that leaves in for me--20-30 minutes, and I prefer a sharp cosnsciousness.
What's funny, the crew at the dispensary--they bail you out of enough jams, I wish I had been able to volunteer some time but I have finally been, just the wrong one.
Strife is everywhere we go.
LOL, but psychologically in spite of perhaps, someone crossing a huge line, and getting "in my head" so to speak, and well, when without your permission, I guess- like a normal doctor-patient relationship-the second one crosses the line, and then covers their mistake by use of a label, well, I have the only copy-save his, and likely his has been burned. My own, limited as it is, as the email part-when they give you a personal one on yahoo? It's very unprofessional, but to try and cover what not only is public record, by the way-and he had the truth in his own file.
Oddly during the stressor of that, and just after a holiday, the first part of 2013 before "Recert Day" was not smooth sailing, but the ride was better having the anxiety factor treatable in some way no matter what.
And a huge relief.
A good Seattle area lawyer reads this, send a note or post a phone number. Robert Goren? Skips Type I CRPS, but that isn't the basis of why some need suing so badly-but another issue. It sim
I can now progress up to soft foods, and that is truly a blessing. I don't find it thrilling that I will essentially be eating baby food, pureed foods, most likely for life-and sure, my side effects, I guess it doesn't bug me that much-my food just has to be made differently and not too rich.
Getting well depends on me as well-and I think that's the goal to begin with.
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